I woke up with a buzz of anticipation this morning, was awake and up before the alarm, mulled on the couch with my warm water & lemon for a little while, selected my clothes for the day, woke hubby up who immediately asked "well? did you weigh in yet?!!" excitement building in his voice... I reply no very casually... and wait for him to get in the shower before I rip my clothes off and go running into the other bathroom and literally JUMP on the scales... expecting god knows what.... I covered my eyes.. a big grin on my face AND
0.5kg loss..................
Just a half a bloody kilo!! okay so a loss is a loss and yes I'm all with that but this morning really sucked.
and that is how my day started.... I can only blame myself, I had a very shoddy week and Tuesday is probably the stupidest day for my weigh in as I don't shake on the weekends but if I did it any other day I'd be fooling myself. i've decided that I will weigh myself on Friday mornings and Sunday mornings also to just gauge if the weekend is really doing me any damage by not CSing for two days...
tonight had me receive some horrible news, a girl i went to school with lost her 2 yr old son, he died suddenly this morning and there is no reason why. my sister rang me an absolute mess as this girl is now a close friend of hers as they live close to each other. I feel sad, sickened and confused at the world for taking such a precious life, heaven must have needed another angel...
Unfortunately this left me with my head in the pantry searching for anything that didn't require any attention to prepare as my mind was elsewhere, hubby & I tossed up the idea of taco's...... pasta bake, not baked and with no pasta.... and I ended up with soup - a tin variety from Aldi that actually meets the CS criteria luckily.... not that me sticking to that helped afterwards when I ate a mini spring roll and mini dim sim from hubby's easy prepare meal choice for the evening (a selection of frozen goods oven baked)......
so this downfall this evening combined with two coffee's today has me on the wrong foot for this week... unfortunately i'm not very motivated about it all nor bothered that I've broken the rules, I have no self discipline for this kind of thing, something my parents so lovingly built into me was if you don't want to do something you don't have to, and if you really want something go and get it... this includes any type of food or beverage I desire at any time of the night or day... thanks mum & dad xx
the rest of the day food wise was pretty good - 4L of water easy, cs shake for brekky, cs soup for lunch, a small apple, too many almonds and some celery, oh and one sugar free lolly...
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