quickie

I've had a HUGE weekend with family down from north queensland. I have indulged in numerous items of food I shouldn't have but I'd like to think I haven't OVERindulged... aside from the bottle of wine on Saturday night.

I have power walked to work this morning and am going for a run tonight, and I tried to flush as much out as I could yesterday with about 3L of water.

Tomorrow is weigh in and I just want to be in the 73kg range instead of the 74kg range!! Today is looking good. I'm busy at work so won't have time to think about food or snacking the day away :)

Hubby has promised me a yummy dinner at new restaurant that does a tall dessert consisting of pistacio nut brownie pieces, crushed pavlova, cream and chocolate topping - but only when I reach my goal of a 10kg loss... bloody slow start but I'm hoping by Christmas it will be done!!!

weigh in # 2.. end of week 2

I woke up with a buzz of anticipation this morning, was awake and up before the alarm, mulled on the couch with my warm water & lemon for a little while, selected my clothes for the day, woke hubby up who immediately asked "well? did you weigh in yet?!!" excitement building in his voice... I reply no very casually... and wait for him to get in the shower before I rip my clothes off and go running into the other bathroom and literally JUMP on the scales... expecting god knows what.... I covered my eyes.. a big grin on my face AND





0.5kg loss..................



Just a half a bloody kilo!! okay so a loss is a loss and yes I'm all with that but this morning really sucked.

and that is how my day started.... I can only blame myself, I had a very shoddy week and Tuesday is probably the stupidest day for my weigh in as I don't shake on the weekends but if I did it any other day I'd be fooling myself. i've decided that I will weigh myself on Friday mornings and Sunday mornings also to just gauge if the weekend is really doing me any damage by not CSing for two days...

tonight had me receive some horrible news, a girl i went to school with lost her 2 yr old son, he died suddenly this morning and there is no reason why. my sister rang me an absolute mess as this girl is now a close friend of hers as they live close to each other. I feel sad, sickened and confused at the world for taking such a precious life, heaven must have needed another angel...

Unfortunately this left me with my head in the pantry searching for anything that didn't require any attention to prepare as my mind was elsewhere, hubby & I tossed up the idea of taco's...... pasta bake, not baked and with no pasta.... and I ended up with soup - a tin variety from Aldi that actually meets the CS criteria luckily.... not that me sticking to that helped afterwards when I ate a mini spring roll and mini dim sim from hubby's easy prepare meal choice for the evening (a selection of frozen goods oven baked)......

so this downfall this evening combined with two coffee's today has me on the wrong foot for this week... unfortunately i'm not very motivated about it all nor bothered that I've broken the rules, I have no self discipline for this kind of thing, something my parents so lovingly built into me was if you don't want to do something you don't have to, and if you really want something go and get it... this includes any type of food or beverage I desire at any time of the night or day... thanks mum & dad xx

the rest of the day food wise was pretty good - 4L of water easy, cs shake for brekky, cs soup for lunch, a small apple, too many almonds and some celery, oh and one sugar free lolly...

finally thought of a goal that really means something :)

walking from the City Cat to work this morning I thought of something that I would really love to achieve for this summer - I know I'm in this to lose a few kilos etc etc but I couldn't really think of one thing that I would LOVE to get out of it - I wear a bikini now and don't care what anyone else thinks... so even though that's a big thing for others.. It's no issue for me.....

THE MAXI DRESS however is a completely different story... I have wanted one for over 12months now and just because of my body shop and the few extra kgs I've been lugging around I just couldn't wear one.... but when I drop about 7kgs oh YES I CAN!!!!

I've decided that this will be the very first reward for myself... if I can look good in a maxi dress I'm super happy :):)

just 'cos

I've come to the realisation that exercise is a good thing and that I should encourage myself to do more of it.
Now don't be thinking that when I say exercise i'm talking about a lengthy amount of time at a sweaty gym at a time of day I could be either tucked up in bed or on the couch!!

Exercise for me = a brisk 10 / 15min walk 2 - 3 times a week with hubby & dogs after work.

Might not sound like much and I guess it isn't but when you do nothing normally, something is anything. Yesterday I took my ipod for a run / walk by myself and went further than I normally would with the dogs, so if I can muster up motivation for that on a Saturday arvo, I've got good things coming to me.

Saturday food...don't get excited it's pretty crappy... just note that I don't CS on the weekends, i just try and eat less than what I used and eat the right things.... unfortunately that didnt happen though...

• warm water with lemon slices
• samples of organic burger, 2 x organic sausage flavours, 1 x lenards chicken sausage - off the nice ladies who get to cook in the middle of the shopping centre and hand snippets out to ppl willing to eat them.. like me :)
• actual breakfast was a treat that I had planned on - 1 x hot hot cinnamon donut and a shared choc thickshake
• 1/4 choc CS bar mid morning
• lunch consisted of an apple, carrot, celery & philly cheese
• snack - pickled onion wrapped up in a piece of cheese
• i then bucked and ate a small packet of twisties.. after which I promptly picked myself up off the couch and went for that run
• more snacks... cheese, kabana, picked onions - no crackers though!
• and dinner was cucumber, capsicum, celery and drumroll for the worst bit of all................. 9 mcdonalds chicken nuggets....... with 4 or 5 vodkas.....
• total water consumption about 3L

All in all I think it could have been worse... I didnt have crackers with my snacks or macca's chips with tea.

Sunday projection for food:

• breakfast - eggs & bacon (no toast)
• snacks will be fruits & cheese
• lunch will be god knows what...maybe salad?
• dinner - homemade meatballs with vegies / salad

see all back on track hopefully for Monday :)

TUESDAY = WEIGH IN DAY... hoping for at least another 1kg but not likely after the week I've had!!!

the weekend again... good for most things.. very very trying on good eating habits!

it's saturday it's saturday yip yip yay!!! Last night was my treat night, leading into the weekend when I am always a bit lax on CS.... we had a healthy dinner (egg salad) and I had a vodka & diet lemonade with the intention of having many, many more after the week I've had at work... well good news on that front... I promptly fell asleep on the couch!! sleep is good for avoiding bad foods :D

Friday:

• Berry Shake for breakfast that tasted like liquid amoxil antibiotics that you get when you are a kid - consequently I had one mouthful and nearly puked out the window.... luckily I had a back up CS choc bar which i had for brekkie instead..
• apple for snack
• chicken soup for lunch
• green tea and cheese for afternoon snack
• got hungry a bit later so had 2 pieces of celery with some philly cheese
• an apple on the way home
• eggs & salad for tea
• oh and my treat of a small amount of potato chips with my vodka
• total water intake for the day approx 5L

Probably a bit much food for one day.... but at least there is still no bread, pasta, potatoes or rice sticking their fat heads in anywhere!!!

stocked up this morning at a new priceline, had to educate the consultant on purchasing 14 different flavoured shakes at the price for a variety pack... but without the pack (get my drift???) she finally got what i meant and was happy to do it for me YAYAY!!! am also going to try the continental cup of soup replacement idea...im not a fan of creamy soup so the CS chicken soup isn't all that appealing to me and I hate the tomato and the beef gives me a headace...also can't stomach a shake for lunch everyday..... BLAH BLAH BLAH i am such a shit dribbler.... my poor husband.............

dogs are going pyscho at something outside, must investigate :) bfn

hectic, busy, stressful work day = diet doesn't work

well it seems this week might be a write off in the 'diet' department... damn i hate that word!!

work has been so so so busy and stressful, eating times are out of whack completely and my only sanity in the last 2 days has been coffee and a bag of liquorice bullets... yesterday I cut lunch completely.......not good for anyone I guess but certainly not good when you're trying to follow an eating plan...

I am so buggered I can't even remember what I ate on what days and when!!! All I know is that even though I am eating sweets and drinking coffee I am still not eating processed carbs or whatever they're called - bread, pasta, rice etc (actually that's a fib- I had a dessert spoon of rice with my dinner last night as I hadn't eaten anything all day) so I guess thats a plus because I once I start I won't stop again....

I've discovered cabbage is a great subsitute as a meal filler instead of pasta or potatoes and it really has been a godsend. I think last week my dinner portions were massive so hubby has been designated the disher upperer for meals... my eyes tend to be too big for my belly.

I am going to keep trying hard for the next few days but i really think I'm going to wipe this week off the charts and start again next Tuesday (weigh in day)

had a blow out....

.... the rest of yesterday didnt quite go as planned unfortunately...... I left it too long to eat and consequently by the time evening came all I wanted to do was gorge on any food in my sight.....I ended up with..........an ice cream, a pickled onion, a piece of cheese... then I knew I HAD to have dinner but didnt want soup or a shake so sat down with a green tea in the hope of sourcing some motivation........... i ended up with broccoli & cauli with some of the leftover chicken / cream sauce from the night before... I thought I was back on track....... but hubby was out for the night so out came the chocolate.. had three squares........ then a handful of chips and another two squares of cadbury......washed down luckily with about 2L of water.... GRRRRRRRRRR I am so not proud of myself!! today is a new day..... but today I AM having a coffee..... GR GR GR

Virgin!

this is my first time ever blogging on a blog site such as this...

I am doing as part of my weight loss journey with CS (if you don't know what that is ... either ask or it doesnt matter :) to you ) cause for me it seems the way to go :) I can write whatever I bloody well want and it doesn't matter who reads or doesn't read it for that matter. My main objective is to keep a food diary in a nicer fashion than a piece of scrap paper floating around my handbag... and as I don't eat as much food as I used to ... this should be pretty easy!!

SO today 11.10.08

10.30am breakfast - strawberry shake (had it with tap water instead of cold YUK)
... skipped snack because before I knew it, it was 2pm and lunch time!

2pm lunch - empower wrap w/ philli cheese, avocado, ham, cucumber & sweet chilli sauce

water intake thus far (4.08pm) is approx 2L

afternoon snack will more than likely be a cup of green tea, a piece of cheese and some celery

dinner is a CS soup of some flavour

exercise for me is absolutely non existent........ I walk to and from the city cat during the week for work and that's me done & dusted

I weighed myself this morning at 75kg .......... more than I had expected....... but I'm still feeling a lot thinner than I was last week so I'm still happy :)